Origin:
- Latin – Virgo
- Latin – Virginitas
- Old French – Virginite
- English – Virgin
- Middle English – Virginity
Middle English : from Old French Virginite, from Latin Virginitas, from Virgo. (See Virgin).
/vərˈjinədē/
•Do you remember your first time?
He was mine.
He was my first everything.
The nervousness.
The intimidation.
The frightfulness.
The panic.
The “this is it” moment.
Everyone wishes for their first time to be memorable- to have that moment shared with a partner you can trust, you can rely on and someone you will utmost never have regrets with.
For that moment when you finally can feel it- when you can understand how it feels for one body to connect with the other-
You feel wanted. You feel beautiful.
You feel- alive.
How can I ever forget how terrified we both were. How young we were. How this was only my first time- but because he was so kind he simply made it feel like his first time, also.
The tries.
Oh, the tries. Do you remember the tries? How you quickly changed your mind and shouted:
“No! No! Not yet.”
Oh, the tries. -I was so scared at one moment I asked to be left alone. After I gathered my thoughts and processed what was happening, I was okay. I was ready.
I knew what I was doing was what I simply wanted. I knew how we were handling it was the best way we could.
I knew I was so in love with him that nothing else mattered.
I was happy. I wanted this feeling.
-I finally was ready. I was there mentally, physically and definitely emotionally to make this jump.
There he was.
On the floor in a corner balled up as tight as a child with fear. Tears coming down his face as he looked at me and said:
“I don’t want to hurt you.”
He will never understand, till the day- how much those words meant to me.
How much those words told the story.
How much those words showed me how he loved me- how he wanted to love me.
And this is the love I walked away from.
This is the love my heart left.
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